okay, time for another long post...

okay, so today, reminded me, of the reasons that i hate my mom... many people use the word hate, jokingly, i dont in this matter, i use it towards her seriously... i wish i had a real mom, i saw someone lastnight out with the entire family... it must be nice, spending time with the entire family, rents and all the kids... stuff like that makes me sad... i cant remember the last time my mom even told me good job, or thanks for something... y is it that i hide from peopele bhind a fake smile??? is it not to show them how im feeling, or just cuz i think its pitiful that i myself am sad?... oh well...

so, i wonder what most people think of life, if its a joke, thats how most people treat it to be... i can think of a few that do that... i try to take it seriously, but sometimes, its hard not to have fun, but when that happens, it fucks me over... so everyone that reads this, i would ask u to please leave a comment and tell me what u think of it as...

so, i havent been up to much lately... i never got round to going out today, i was busy all day, eitehr lawn work, or my moms slave bitch...

something i miss, is being with my family... i seriosuly do, i mean i hate my mom, but i cant stand but love her... its hard not too... my dad is awesome... but lately i have found myself wanting to spend time with each of them, doing something we all enjoy... but when i try to spend time with my mom, the only words i usually hear is"Leave me alone" or "Get the fuck out of my office"... shes been super pissy lately... i try to cheer her up, doesnt work... its why im never home, and when im here, they bitch, when im not, they bnitch that im never home, they asked me lastnight why im never home, i told her because i hate being round her... i do... my dad is cool, love spending time with him, but my mom, all she ever does is just bitch...all the time... well, im kinda gettin sick of being home right now, so i think im gonna go on a walk or something... idk, prolly just sit outside on my tramppoline like i usually do...

goodnight sleeptight sweetdreams everyone, angels watch over yah...

like wow...

okay, so lately, me been super happy... ive recently switched over to Mozilla Firefox... its alot better... then, lastnight, holy hell, haha, long night... but all of the things, im not able to be telling anyone, mainly cuz of the illegalality(that aint right)... my bro and i hung out with Christa and Ed lastnight... it was fun, roadblocks and cars haha... but cant say ne more than that, but oh is there more things than we did than that... there was one car, they got pissed, we blocked off the main adelphia exit, they got out of thier car and moved the road block, so, after they left, we fixed it, they come back, and got super pissed, but they didnt se us, we all have got massive ninja skill... my shoes got really soaked, and at 4 am, when i tried to take the one off, it ripped the back lining... grrr... but neway, i just got done with my morning routine, so now im off to go get some breakfast...

(While throwing rocks at building across river) "So if this is what we do when we're bored, imagine what we do when we're having fun." -Me
"Just imagine what we'd be doing when we're having fun and high!" -Ed

well...

okay, so lately, ive been super happy, but that ended... but im not super sad... just kinda pissed... practically because of the ppl that surround me... some of them are cool, others, i could care less bout... hmm... well i feel kinda angry, but it doesnt really matter, who cares, who even reads this shit??? good question right there...
lately ive started gettin into the war, not supporting us, not supporting them, just things bout it...
all the deaths, i could care less, find it kinda funny... but think bout it, who is really the terrorist??? us or them, correct me if im wrong, we are fighting for something that is THERES*oil*... we just payed them for it... and we are going into thier contry to kill them, for thier shit... i mean, thats like worse than stealin weed from someone...
other news... idk... not mcuh happens... i gotta make like 30 bucks tommorow for stuff...
other than that, not much... not mcuh to do here... im tired... think ill go to bed early tonight...
wouldnt that be a spiff of my day, bed early... right...
so i got one smoke left... its me lucky...
so im sittin here playin pool with Nathan, hes pretty good, but we be tied 2-2... i got lucky those two times...
this post is gonna be super long, but who cares...
yah know, i gotta get some balls... need them to tell ppl what i want...
so, i almost punched someone today, but i dont like fightin, aint that funny... but yah, ppl have been pissing me off alot lately... there are some ppl i love spending time with just cuz they dont treat me like SHIT... not many ppl like that... but i must be going, this pool game is getting good...

later everyone... ----<3--->

that was great

okay, so yestarday has been like one of the best days ever... first off, jimmy and i hung out, then Christa came down... we all hung out and went on a walk... *remove events of this time*... then we had gone on a ride... we went up to smethport to his friends house, and OH MY GOD!!!... we ended up going to some graduation party... i dont really remember much of it... like as soon as i got there, the person that had it, we started talking bout heavy metal, then there was this other guy, he was awesome as shit... this girl then makes me this drink, and it was ok, wasnt the best taste, but got the job done... after bout 3 of thoughs, i go outside to get ppl for hide and go seek... it was some camp... then this lil 18 yr old wanted to box me, i got him like once... he dropped... then did two beer bongs... was offered to do a keg stand, but uhuh... no thanks... then from there on, i dont really remember too much... we did something, never got round to hide and go seek, but we went home... then once there hung out with Christa... we went to the town pool again... and before we left, i put one of the lawn chairs right on the tip of the diving board... it was nice... then we went home, and like 2 hours after drinking nething, i finally puke, just a lil though... but ewww... and then came home, mom wakes up... that sucked... i went into the bathroom immediately to brush my teeth...

and now i sit here, with a hangover... these things suck... i need a smoke and coffee...

Byes everyone

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YAY!!!

well, im super duper happy, it still hasnt come down... tommorow, i am to be waking up at like 8(harsh huh???) i told my mom to kick me in the nuts if needed to make sure i get up... then going to the dump with my dad to take some shit up... then finally going up to Christa's round 10 hopefully to go job hunting with her... then celebrate later that day... so umm, idk, so im gonna get going


goodnight sleeptight sweetdreams


<3

YAY!!!

hmm...

well, lately, i have been feeling amazing, like nothing can take this away... i have found something that i am pleased to now know... its one of those things that give yah the warm fuzzy feeling in ur tummy... the fireworks were awesome... Christa and Sam came down to my house, then we left... we saw a lot of different people down there... shot some bottle rockets down the middle of the road, almost hit someone haha... then we dropped Sam off, then Christa... Then at like 2 Christa came down, we just sat outside and talked... my mom caught me in the door... she didnt care that much... i dont even thing she remembered it this morning... but idk... haha... DAMN!!! i cant get over how happy i am right now... i dont even really know why that is that way... but this feeling for this i can get use to... i mean i really like it alot... i guess, i just gotta let this feeling play out of how it should be... i wish for it to turn out the way i want it to... whenever Sam L. msgs me, im gonna be going down there, hopefully, then up to Christa's so we can all hang out... the P.I.R.L. are the best... by far... haha... and noone knows what it is but Sam L. Christa, and Naya i think... but oh well... my fingers and wrists are starting to hurt, so im gonna get going and leave it at this...

night night everyone...

love yah all...

yah know, its easy to hind behind a smile when ur feeling down, but how is it that u hold back the tears without others noticing the pain inside?

Hokay, so heres the earth, round...

well, tonight, i had ALOT of fun tonight, went to the town pool, then came home... Christa and i hung out alot lately... its nice, pretty cool person she be... due to walking through town from the pool in soaking wet clothes, and leaving a trail all the way to my house, i have been found a pirate name, its gonna take some work though... Pirate Snail... cuz of the trail haha.. im such a loser... i have been feeling wonderful lately... i know why too... im smiling now even though im cold as a witches tit... i think the smile is frozen in place... but hey, i gotta get going everyone... goodnight everyone...