And this is goin to tear me apart it seems.
I have something in my eye, that's all.
He's been my buddy all along, to teach me how to ride a bike, to cook, to do just about everything, but now, it seems as if its going to end.
No more peanut butter cookies after school. No more chocolate milk, no more cartoons, or anything like that, it seems as if I'm going to be taking up a new aspect on life.
I'm ripping at the seams already.
I'll just fiddle around, ignore whats really going on, go day by day, just how i do now, but knowing that once was, is no more.
I'll write little hiakus about things that are happening around me.
A way to ignore the things that are really taking place.
Such as me having no schooling right now, or no job.

I can make it through this

Things have its ^up’s and _down’s though

It's been tough lately, and im bitching and ranting.
Atleast it's good sentence structure and punctuation and what not.
Toodle loo folks.

catching up on old times

haha, so, i never wrote this on here, but, i always had the intentions to. one night, Ed and i, were chilling outside the apartment, like a week ago or some shit, walkign the puppy right? now, we had our pre-ritual activities in us, so, you know we had a good laugh at this one.
now to the fun part. this fucking guy is walking down the street(this all taking place at bout 11:30 P.M.) with this little kid... first thing me and eddie hear, "its ok, Santa loves you jesus loves you, I love you, its ok." we knew this was gonna be fun haha...
neways, he sees the puppy, comes up and starts talking, and goes how old are yah? i said bout 6 months, he goes, "i was talking to the puppy, not you mongrels" i was decently offended, and still really high, and kinda off guard... so, we keeps talking to the puppy, predicting whats its gonna do, (im thinking, its 30 degrees out, this guy finds time to talk to dogs...) the kid is just standing there. so, after awhile, he bows down to the dog, and starts pounding the ground with his self proclaimed "puppy language"
wtf....
at this point, ed, burts inside, laughing..leaving me outside... with him... and the kid...
then he encourages the kid to talk to the puppy...
bad batch of lsd...
so, after this happens, i look at the guy, and he actually talked to me for once, and starts bitching at me... about my long hair??? it doesnt even come to my eyes, or how i look like a hippy with a nazi cross... blonde hair, blue eyes... asked what breed the dog is... iasked him if he was fucking serious... border colli...
then he called us all mongrels and said that the puppy should be able to live free, i told him it would starve to death on the streets, hes retarded, and went inside...
on my way up the stairs, i asked myself, did that really just fucking happen, or am i that torched?
i turned around, it was real...

i had a dream lastnight...
well, today...
im not sure if i should have liked it or not....
i liked what happened in it...
but... idk...
it was nice, and im the only person, that will EVER know what happened, so HA!
but, i have to go clean, ive been procrastinating on that for awhile...
toodle loo people...

Gerascophobia- Fear of growing old.


so, thats all me right there...

its been awhile

so, seems its been awhile since ive posted... not too much has happened really... went to the doctor, got a new medication, Topomax, shit fucks with me, wake up dizzy, its for migraine prevention i guess... the doctor was japanese... havent been to school in awhile cuz of it... like i barely can move when i wake up...
it never rains but it pours
Pop is doing okay, not the best, but he has been worse...
ive been bored lately...
routinely days... my life needs some kind of new spark... maybe like for this fucking snow to go away, and some warmer weather, like 70ºF that would be nice º¿º...
i got reese pieces.... coca cola... 5 cigarettes...
On average, a Cigarette pack, only uses the work "cigarette" once, and its not even in the name *rolls eyes*...
god damn topomax....
im bored... and i need to be saved...
OOOO i also kinda lost my job...
i called and told them that cuz of my meds, my doctor told me to take 6 weeks off till my next appt with him right, and she said,
"I can understand if its school or health issues, i have a daughter that's been sick for a year. But you need to get you're priorities straight."
ppl can be dumb...
yah... so, i think i need a shower...
so im gonna do that...
toodle loo everyone...


I Love You Ashely Nichole ♥

Im not sick but im not well