NO RIGHT WAY TO DO THIS SHIT!!!

The All Seeing, All Dancing: August 2005

Sunday, August 28

dumdadumdumdum

okay, im anxious, hungry, and pissed, its hard to be those three things at the same time... anxious for next weekend, hungry havent eaten all day,m not because im not hungry, but well, idk really, i think its cuz im sad :(... and pissed cuz talkin to ppl in my house is like talking to a fuckin rock... havent done much lately... i paint.. STAINED today... didnt paint, i was using stain... big fuckin difference... but my back hurts from all of it, it agitated me... then my bro was being himself, a negative nancy... he got his stereo hooked up, and since then, ive been his man bitch to help him with it... i was mr slave HAHA, i can still get myself to laugh... so, i got a new pack of smokes, and instead of having one, im talking to Stephen, but they are still tempting... justy dont think bout it and im fine... i even set em off to the side... me proud... man, there isnt like shit to do in this town nemore... everybody that plays hack left, Christa, Ed, Jimmy isnt in town, Mike doesnt play nemore, well does, but is never round... and everyone else, never hung out with much... oh, Katie, but shes like, idk haha... just every now and then hang out wither... but Christa and Ed, saw them everyday, and now they both be gone... miss em both... man, i wish i could be going back to coudy right now, see everyone again... i g2g

Wednesday, August 24

meaningful song... someone else knows it too...

Hold up
Hold on
Don't be scared
You'll never change what's been and gone
May your smile (may your smile)
Shine on (shine on)
Don't be scared (don't be scared)
Your destiny may keep you warm
Cos all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
Get up (get up)
Come on (come on)
Why're you scared? (I'm not scared)
You'll never change
What's been and gone
Cos all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
Cos all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
We're all of us stars
We're fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see us some day
Just take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out

YAY!!!

and not so yay... today, is my last day as a free man... so today, i am gonna have as much fun as i possibly can... not much i will do today... prolly just hang out with people... or try and find someone to... my brothers smoke smelled like a clove... oh well... but im gonna go get some captian crunch, with out the berries even... they are the shit... so later everybody...

Thursday, August 18

YAYAYAYAYAYAYYAYAYAYAY

I FINALLY GOT MY SEPTUM BACK TO A 4 GAUGE!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOT!!!!!!
but it hurts...

yippy...

okay, got back from the trip, it was fun, got sunburn really bad though...
i got a hacky sack, and alot of clothes...
the hack was good... emphasis on the word WAS... i was out burning the garbage, just got done fixing the amount of beads in it, trying to break it in... and poof, right over the shed, and into the burner barrel... it got burned a lil... got it out... and it ripped on the side... i did a perfect sowing job on it... and... it... ripped... so i havce ALOT of sowing ahead of me for that one, it was red, with a black and white nautical star on it... big one... ripped... damnit...
i gotta go do some more work...

later everyone...

Saturday, August 13

okay...

so, i dont really remember what i did today, i got my computer hooked up, then my fuckin hard drive out of now where decides to crash... pisses me offf... soo im leaving tommorow for Erie... that ill be fun, gonna be there till like late wednesday night*YAY*... oh, i mem what i did today, i went wiuth my bro to the hospital... he hurt his neck again... were gonna fix my computer tommorow(well, today technically, but you know...) i have Coffee still sitting in the micro waave, had to nuke it, got cold... hmm, not much to say, just nothing good on tv, and im wired on enough coffee as it is... i cant really think of nething else to say, so im gonna go haha...


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(A leg is a drawing board for razors)


night everyone

Friday, August 12

funny day...

well, today started funny, prolly end the same way too... i finally got my computer hooked up... its exciting... i missed typing on it... i procrastinated something for like a week that would take 10 minutes... well, neway, not much here, just felt like saying i got it ll hooked up...

Ed, Christa, i hope everything works out for the best of u two, i truely do...

Wednesday, August 10

what a funny day today has been

okay, today, makes me laugh my ass off. like if blogger had smileys on here, id put like a bazillion of em in a row ; )... but neway, today was good, played alot of hacky sack, earned money, and alot of other stuff, but because of the content(it was non illegal) i cant put it on here... oh, but i do want to say a couple of things, Katie, if your reaqding this, a couple of things, first, im not sorry, but what i did was not needed, and what u did wasnt either, it was uncalled for, and what i did also... i know u prolly hate me, and prolly wont be reading this, but if u do read this, would u please comment so we can atleast work this out so we dont completely hate eachother, i dont hate u, just u needed to be set straight, the world wont always do what u want the second u snap your fingers... second, i am asking nicely two please have my things back that u have of mine, i have ur things ready... i would greatly appreciate it if i got them back, i will come by to pick them up... another thing, if ur going to havce someone kick my ass for u, first off, make sure they either kill me, or paralyze me, the cops will not be brought into it at all... also, if ur telling them to kick my ass for something, make sure u tell them both sides of the fucking story, did u mention to Jay that u punched me in the side of the fucking head... u treated me like shit for too long for me to put up with it, and today, i got sick of ur shit... also, i was nice enough to give u back ur hacky sack, i could have kept it, but didnt... and, if u are having someone attack me, atleast make sure they arent over 21, or theyll be sent to jail, but u might not care, cuz ur not really caring like that, it wouldnt bother u to see someone else get to jail now would u??? well over all, i consider the things that happened between us a fluke(did i spell that right???)... so, im sorry for assaulting you, i shouldnt have, but i have asked u many times before not to hit me, and todqay u saw why i asked u not too, i did not do it because it was u, its just that i snap when ppl hit me, its why i dont fight, so i SINCERELY PROFUSELY apologize, i do not ask for a apology from u, but i would appreciate it, but it is not needed, im use to be stepped on by ppl, shouldnt be, but i am... hmm, other things, i went to some haunted house out by Ranea's house with him, Eric Majot, and two girls, the ones name was Sally, and dont remember the others one... and apparently, Jed, and all of his butt fucking friends, want to beat the shit out of everyone that hangs with Aaron, and Eric monroe... Punk came to us, and called us punks... haha it was funny, and Jed was trying to start shit with Ranea... he got right into his face, the entire time i was smiling... Midget, Aaron and me were all waiting for someone to swing... we would have been on that faster than a fat kid on a cupcake... i suddenly smeel fried chicken... haha... i think im gona go to Sheetz, so ill ttyl...

<3 of course...

hmm, super happiness is the shit!!!

okay, so lately, i have been super happy, and i know exactly why, but that is something that everyone will have to wait to find out... if neone that reads this stuff, is on my yahoo list, and ur prolly wondering why i havent been online for like a week, its cuz i havent hooked my computer up since the LAN party last Friday... im too lazy to haha... right now im on my Dad's computer.... today i ate Chinese... lastnight, i got piss drunk, it was damn nice, im such a fucking lush though... but we threw soo much shit in the river... so the other day i cried cuz like i watched the movie Radio, 10 out of 10 movie in my oppinion... my Dad's computer is sooooo damn slow... im crying now cuz of this song, but its really good, Stop Crying Your Heart Out by Oasis... slower song, so most of u will think im a pussy for listening to it, but it has meaningful lyrics... so earlier, i ws in the living room watching tv with my Mom... and my brother got home from work, and was wondering what we had to eat, so my Mom told him to go in and eat some Boston Cream Pie, BUT i though she said Boston Queer Pie... i laughed my ass off... i hope i see two ppl tommorow... Christa of course, shes super cool, and Laura, we had plans... hmm, but i gotta work tommorow too... this computer s really starting to piss me off, it wont keep up with how fast i can type... like, ill be typing one sentence, and it will still be on the last one... so today, I HAD NOO FUCKING CIGGARETTES AT ALL!!!!!! STEPHEN U SHOULD BE PROUD, I KNOW I AM!!!! but yah... hmm, well not much new stuff in the world of Chuck, oh, im not fat nemore... i lost some more weight... but bad news too, me Christa is going to College come end of this month... ill miss her so... damnit... shes too cool to leave, andshes gonna be gone for like 4 years... ill get a car and go visit her, after 90 days after i turn 16 that is... but its for a good reason, that once she comes back, shell be able to like make muchies for us in desperate times... that'll be cool... man, i got alot on my mind, all good things though... OH IMPORTANT NOTICE!!! i am for hire, i am there to cheer ANYONE up, unless ur either a comp0lete drama whore, or just a sadass... oh, and if ur a bad speller and talk on yahoo alot, i can act as a spell chekcer too, the cost, A VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY cheap, NOTHING!!! HAHA, im here for it... btu neways, that was my silly time... i really like being runk, but not too hte point of like becoming one of the AA ppl... i dont have an addiction to it, but the way that i am when im drunk, im not mean, but funny, and always happy, and i can tell people what i really want too, its neat, so if u want to know the real me, get smashed with me, only if ur NOT on probation... so when i logged into this thing, i forgot my username... it was pretty bad...

hmm, well, i figured i have written plenty of my life in here for all of my wonderful friends to read about(prolly sounds it, but im not on nething tonight)... but im going to bed... night night sleeptight sweetdreams everyone...
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 i cant say it enough...

Wednesday, August 3

new song someone think of a title please

Can you hear me
My sweet father
My dear Mother
Or are you here to take me
From all these lies
That fill my life
So many problems
that are in my life
they are addicting
like a sick game of mine
you call me nothing
throwing me around
always holding me down
with a life of pain
i cant see the right way
with eyes full of tears
i never thought like this
with mind games
full of hatred

Monday, August 1

fuck...

okay, so today sucked... dinner was horrible, well, the food wasnt... but the ppl that surrounded me... then my mom pulls her usual shit, and its bad when u dont remember holding ur own mom against the wall by her throat and raising ur fist to her... i want to get sent away, get away from all of this, just for a week, it will be worth it... but im gonna go on a walk, try to cool off a lil bit... all i have to do is look around my room, the walls are riddled with holes... and i remember every one of those times... im going to go.

INSOMNIA FUCKIN SUCKS!!!